perfect like you

I'm watching the episode of Sex and the City where Carey shamefully confesses to Miranda that she's meeting with Big and Miranda becomes VERY angry. Miranda tells Carey that she refuses to hold her hand again if Carey should need her to by getting involved with him again. Miranda storms off and leaves Carey in the store after Carey tells Miranda not everyone is as strong or perfect as she is.
Why do I bring this up you the reader might inquire...because I was struck by the fact that this is EXACTLY what happened with one of MY ex closest friends A-L. It hurt so much when she claimed that SHE couldn't go through another moment of MY pain. it felt as though, MY personal journey to grow, feel and learn was hers, not mine at all. Needless to say months later she blew up at me for some pent up resentment and accused me of not caring enough about her because I didn't call her to wish her a Happy Birthday until 10pm. She seemed to feel it was ALL my fault that SHE felt she gave more. I can genuinely say that the fact is, if a person wants a relationship to be 50/50, they have to see what is important and what is not. To this day, I'm not sure what happened or why she chose to cut me off. ON sex and The City, Carey and Miranda have no problem apologizing and swearing to not place judgment on one another and to allow anything to become between them. I know, I know, that's TV, but actually, when I had a falling out with my dear SN we reconciled and later talked about how immature both of us was acting and that never again would such behavior split us in two because at this point in our loves we're beyond that. Unfortunately, TWO (not just ONE) of my dearest, closest friends just can't rise above. I'm not perfect, never said I was, but friendship has always meant something to me and I'm hurt it is so easily thrown to the side by two people I thought I knew so well.
I've learned a hard lesson though, you have ONLY yourself. Sure you can count on a few friends, family loved ones, but in the end, you really, truly MUST have the stregnth to rely solely on yourself!