why? the turth about happiness

Sometimes it feels like happiness just doesn't really exist.  No matter what you do, happiness does not want to be found; like happiness might be playing a cruel game of hide and seek. It feels like happiness is an illusion that merely fools ti thinking it's attainable so during times one is feeling a darkness descend upon their heart, one would think "why bother looking for happiness anyway, it's all trickery and tomfoolery".
We all know that "people" (some animals are "people", better ones than many humans I know) are social creatures so, rarely do they want to be alone. Who wants to be alone, ALL the time?...social beings want, or need rather...to have a companion...in order not to feel so "alone"....but then when we find a companion and the companion instills the illusion there's a feeling of being all "happy" (The very principle we perpetually seek) and giddy..."yippeee found happiness and companionship", it's a blow when one realizes the companion is not that perfect image in their minds eye....the happiness turns to disappointment....so when the companion starts farting all over the place, eats like there's no tomorrow and gains even more weight then they had on their large frame to begin with, their family members are emotionally intrusive and bicker with you and then to top it off, the originally beloved companion loses all semblance of sexiness, one just mourns as they watch all possibilities for happiness go down the drain...pretty quickly.....not a pretty site....
BUT!!  Hope is NOT lost...Change is always a door knob away and ONE MUST take responsibility to facilitate the change they need with or without found Companion...If it is happiness found and lost...it is part of the game of life to share the great disappointments one has in companion, WITH companion, so companion can assess their own disappointments and changes can be made to achieve more moments of happiness, even for the sake of living the illusion.  THIS seems to be the key to life and experiencing those moments of happiness, illusions or not...Those moments "feel" good and it would seem THAT is what life is made of.... with or without the companion
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